I’ve been reading this blog for quite a while. I even put link on my private blog to invite everybody I know here. Now I decided to write my own story here. I am 31 now. Till i get married I always thought of myself as an ugly and fat person (in my “best” years I even had 180lb – I am onl 168 cm tall). Then I started my way to getting fitter and ended with weight of 138lb. Until i got pregnant and my body was in total shock. I managed to climb to 180lb again which was a disaster for me. I had a very lively and lovely boy Mateusz. Due to breastfeeding and keeping away from calories I managed to come back to my before pregnancy weight. I was able to wear size 10 again. But we started talking about another kid and i was so scared to gain weight. Fortunately due to “accident” i was pregnant again. It was a hard time for me because just a few months ago I started my new job. Being a pregnant woman with one kid and 40h job is a hard task but I managed to work till the end of 6th month. My weight reached up to monstrous 196lb and i was totally down when thinking about my body. Now after almost 8 months and as a monther of a boy and a girl I can say I am in my size again. My weight is on 140 again and I do not have to keep 3 sizes in my wardrobe anymore. I had a huge belly and now skin does not look very nice but i hope to work on that in future. Maybe when I stop breastfeeding again? I feel stronger when i see other women sharing their stories. It is so stressing to see all models and actress skinny all the time. I wish we were shown their real photos and not photoshop work because for us being pregnant mean losing our curves, our body of a normal woman. I want to love myself but it is difficult when i hear everywhere I am a little too big, i have to lose a little, i should stop eating any sweets, i should i should… I should just love myself and my kids and being a good mom and a woman for my husband – THAT IS ALL I SHOULD DO. Remember that our scars on belly mean we had the most precious thing under our heart and no man will have it, no man will understand our sacrifation – NO MAN!