Little boys 3YRS AND 2YRS
As a 24 year old woman i have never really remembered a time when i looked in the mirror and thought i look really good and been 100% happy with my body. I remember being 16 years old at school and hating my weight of 130lb 5ft 4 . I look back now and think i would kill to have that body back. After a 7 year happy relationship and marriage the lbs have caught up on me as when your happy you don’t really care as much.
My first pregnancy was great everything was fine and the natural birth wasn’t bad either i didn’t need any stitch’s or anything . The worst thing was my belly afterwards it was just a saggy bag of nothing and i remember looking in the mirror at my stretch marks and thinking this will go back please please go back and fade away. Now when you have a newborn the last thing you want to do is work out and yes i will admit i did get lazy and i expected my tummy back with no work at all.
10 months later i got pregnant again and this time around it wasn’t that easy i was very ill and went to 42 weeks. My poor tummy was awful i wish i had toned up before.
I weight myself the day before i gave birth and i was 200lb now i was 2 weeks over and i thought my god this has just got to be the water and baby.
lol i remember the first thing i did when i arrived home with the baby is run upstairs to the bathroom to weigh myself hehe. I was 180lb I had an operation when i was 17 so now my stomach was hanging over my scar just like a c section.
This self hate of my body had to stop.
I was in denial really just got on with being a good mum to my two little munchkins but on October of last year i decided i want to weigh 130lb again i want to feel like i did at 16 and this time not beat myself up as i now know it was a healthy weight. I started healthy eating and no carbs mixed with Zumba and running.
I am now 138 lb and feel great still have to tone now i want to try and sculpt my stomach back naturally as much as i can. The picture is my sad tummy now i am trying to make her smile again lol.
I am hoping my new skin care routine will help my scars and my 100 sit ups a day with more cardio will help. I do know accept i will never be confident enough to wear a 2 piece swimsuit and have thrown all my old ones away but i have replaced them with lots of sexy one pieces and actually feel a little better.
I do accept my body more now as i know i have worked to help it out and i know i have two little darlings that are happy and healthy there are more important things in life all natural mummies have wobbly bits its just more to cuddle i suppose