Hello mammas ^_^ My name is Misty, I’m twenty-four. I have boy/girl twins. I have been married one year. ^_^ (this is the only site I have: http://nocuously.livejournal.com)
I really wish I knew the women on this forum in real life. I could use the strength in dealing with what is now my new body.
Here is my birth story. In April 2004,I became increasingly bloated until I could hardly bend my knees. Scared to go to the doctor, I put it off for over a month. On May 21st of 2004 I was diagnosed with Minimal Change Glomerulonephritis (a disease where my immune system was attacking my kidneys, for an unknown reason). After a week’s stay and biopsy in the hospital, I was told to rest and take dozens of medications. In the next year, my boyfriend stood by me. In May of 2005, after five attempts to control the disease, I was put on a round of chemo. I remissed at the end of June. Where does the baby come in? Here we go. ^_^
My boyfriend and I married on our seventh year anniversary, on September 1st. In August we started trying for a baby, having been told that I may be infertile due to the chemo. On my honeymoon, I didn’t get the period for which I was due. On the fourth, I took an at home test. It was positive. I took another one in the morning, before calling the doctor, that too was positive. How eerie, because, at the end of September at the OB, she said I was having twins!
I’ve been through alot. I have come to love myself and treasure every minute. My pregnancy went well. I never worried about having a baby until they tried to tell me I couldn’t. Then I was more than happy to prove that I could have TWO, let alone one! A part of me, is ashamed by the way I look, not for me, but ashamed that others may be offended. But honestly, for the chance to be a mother, it is well worth it. I have been given angels. My kidney doctor said that pregnancy could change my chemistry…and make my disease worse or…I would find it never comes back again. My aggressive disease hasn’t come back. I believe my babies saved my life. For that, they have claimed my tummy. If I could tighten the skin, I would still keep my stretch marks and c-section scar as badges of honor. The hanging skin I can do without, but the women in my family have faith that I can overcome that, either mentally and/or in actuality.
My twins are Adian Anthony (6lbs 7 1/4 oz) and Amelia Grace (4 lbs). They are angels. In the most real way.
I am trying to come to terms with my new body. I am amazed at the life I created and the fact that I can nurse them with my own body. As for the stomach, I try not to think about it, but my sexuality is lost to me. It seems I am a mother solely and I have such a hard time finding myself sexy this way. I am working on it though. One day, I want to go to a nude beach, just as I am, and embrace this body as my home, something to be honored.
Sorry this was so long. Thank you very much for reading. Here’s a small photo journey.
These are my babies as newborns.
Thanks again. ^_^ Good luck mommies and mommies-to-be, it’s just amazing.