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Jennifer

July 21, 2006

I am Jennifer. I am going to be 30 years old this year. I had my first child in 1997 when I was 20 years old. I just had my 2nd child 5 months ago. With almost 9 years between pregnancies, I had time for my body to somewhat recover from the glorious things called pregnancy and childbirth. But you could never tell by looking at me now! :)

I am a big girl and have a really hard time getting the weight off the older I get. With Brandan, I was 140 pounds at the beginning of my pregnancy. On the day he was born, I was up to 282 pounds! I gained a whole person. A few weeks after he was born, I went down to 208 and started my weight loss journey. It took me a year to get down to 165 pounds and I looked damn good.

Then I had a rough stretch in my life and the pounds just flew on. :)

I was at 225 pounds at the start of this last pregnancy with Remy. The day he was born I was 260. Now, 5 months postpartum, I am at 236 and on Weight Watchers for the 4th time. :(

My body has been through two c-sections so of course I have my “war wounds” that look so gross.

I also have a pooch that I am so quick to hide away tucked secretly in my jeans.

I have the saggy breastfeeding boobies. But those I am most proud of.

This is my first time breastfeeding and I am so proud of the nursing relation ship I have with my son. It was a struggle in the early weeks because of low supply issues, but we conquered it all!

I am frustrated that I am so big and out of shape, but you know what? I wouldn’t trade in a single stretch mark or saggy piece of skin for anything else in the heavens or this earth. When I see my two boys smile, it makes it all so worth it.

I nurtured these two babes for 9 months and they took over my body and made me feel awkward, tired, frustrated and stressed but they are both healthy and beautiful just the way it should be!

I am flabby. I am overweight. I am exhausted. I am Mommy! :)

This is me half way through pregnancy #2 with Remy.
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Me and Remy Douglas and hour after his birth.
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First time we nursed.
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Me and Remy about 2 months postpartum.
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5 months postpartum.
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It’s all SO worth it!!
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9 Responses to “Jennifer”

  1. Debbie Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 1:15 am

    wow! Your kids have the most awesome eyes!

  2. Aotearoa Diva Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 3:58 am

    Ditto what Debbie said!!! But aside from that, Jennifer, hon, you look beautiful, the love for your children shines through in your face and by the looks on their happy little faces you are a wonderful mum to them! As for losing weight, you’ll get there, one day at a time, and with your attitude, you can do anything!!Good luck to you and your beautiful boys! :)

  3. Thorny Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 5:01 am

    As a fellow Big Mama, I really applaud your courage here. You’ve inspired me to take my own pictures and write down my own story. As for the weight? If you want to lose it, go for it. But if you’re happy as you are? Just flash that smile – no one will remember anything else.

  4. Anonymous Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 6:48 am

    you are absolutely beautiful and so are your children!!!you have the sweetest face–you look like a very fun person!

  5. Manic Mom Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 7:28 am

    Jennifer, you are ABSOLUTELY beautiful, and so are your boys. I am most in awe of your story because you seem so brave, and so determined and that determination will get you to the place you need to be!WW is a great place to go. I lost 65 on the program after my third child was born almost 5 years ago (sadly, 20 pounds found its way back, but I am aware of it, and will get it off).Anyway, you are beautiful, your belly is beautiful–it was home to those gorgeous babies. You seem like a very strong and determined person and I wish you all the best!God bless!

  6. Mercy Says:
    July 22nd, 2006 at 8:42 am

    Okay, you are just BEAUTIFUL, woman!

  7. R Says:
    July 24th, 2006 at 5:35 am

    There is nothing more beautiful than a nursing baby, Thank You for sharing your story and pictures.

  8. Cheek Says:
    July 25th, 2006 at 10:26 am

    Your boys and the body that grew and nourished them are beautiful! The pride and joy you feel about nursing just shines in your words – what a wonderful post!

  9. Adrienne Says:
    July 26th, 2006 at 8:38 pm

    AWE! You made me all teary. I LOVE the end of your story. It seems we are bombarded with images of skinny minnys and that we are unworthy if we aren’t. Your story just makes me feel so normal. Thanks!!Isn’t breastfeeding so satisfying? Its like you can continue growing another human being even though they are no longer a physical part of you. Gotta love the little titmice:)

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