Hi Everyone! I have been visiting this site for the last four months and like to comment but have just now found the time to actually post. I am 31 and had my son about 5 ½ months ago. I love all the posts by the brave and smart women that I have read over the last 4 months.
First I would like to say that I LOVED being pregnant. I felt more beautiful and sensuous than I ever did before. My pregnant body felt so full and ripe! My pregnancy was textbook and easy, no morning sickness, active, and fun. It had its emotional ups and downs, but overall it was a breeze.
I planned a natural delivery and thought it would go as smoothly as my pregnancy. It did not go as planned of course. I had a placental abruption that made an immediate c-section necessary. My son was born very healthy but rather small at 5 lbs 11 oz. Turns out there was an undetected problem with my placenta that caused him to be on the small side. The scary experience and having a surgical birth really affected the first few months with my son.
At 3 months post partum, I realized I was experiencing some pretty major PPD on the anxiety end of the spectrum. I couldn’t sleep, was afraid to look out of my windows, and was even afraid of having knives in my house. With some work on my part and some meds, I have come out the other side with a new perspective and a new attitude. Breastfeeding my son have been a very healing experience for me and has helped me get past his traumatic birth and the PPD.
I have a much greater appreciation for my body and the work it has done for me and my son. My body is strong and has nurtured my son for the last 15 months. My breasts, thighs, butt, and tummy are all a little softer and rounder, but I am so grateful for that softness. I started at 145 pre pregnancy and gained 22 pounds, ending at 167. Now I am at 135 after joining Weight Watchers, breastfeeding, and some mild workouts. I didn’t get any stretch marks with the pregnancy but have plenty on my breasts and hips from when I was an adolescent, plus the CS scar. My body is not perfect (not that it ever was, ha!), but I am more confident than I ever have been before.
The women on here are so beautiful and full of the ripeness that motherhood brings. I hope that we can expand our ideas of what is beautiful and realize that perfection is boring. We need to take care of ourselves and look on our bodies with KINDNESS. Our bodies have done us a huge favor of giving us our children and we need to repay that by forgiving the “flaws.”
I am so looking forward to experiencing bringing my next child into this world. Thank you for reading my post.