I have a 9 month old and weighed 150 before pregnancy(size and am average height (26 y.o.). I was very unhappy at the time with my size, I’ve felt too fat my entire life because there are always those girls that are skinnier and more perfect. I don’t think I could ever be completely happy with my body unless it looked exactly like a Victoria’s Secret model. I guess this is what society has done to me.
Anyway, I gained 31 pounds during pregnancy which I was pretty happy about because I didn’t want to gain any more than I could ‘easily’ lose after baby was born.
So, after my precious little baby was born (8lb. 6oz) I lost 20 pounds in 2 weeks without trying! I couldn’t believe it. Then I gained 10 of that back in the following months, which was very depressing.
Now, here I am 9 months after baby’s birth and a size 12, 170 pounds, 38E nursing bra (was 36C before).
I never have thought that a 12 looked good, and I am definitely not happy with my weight where it is, but to my amazement, I do feel a little sexy and curvy in my skin. Not sure why that is. I have discovered that clothes are not made to fit a person who is overweight. Nothing ever fits me right or looks quite the way it’s supposed to. Maybe that’s one reason models are so skinny? And why is it so difficult to find a bra bigger than a C or D cup? My goodness I know there are plenty of moms out there that have this problem.
Nevertheless, I do feel sexy when I’m not wearing clothes. When I look in the mirror I don’t see a size 12, or what I always thought an unclothed size 12 would look like.
No matter what, even with all the stretch marks, sagging and fat, I could NEVER regret giving birth to my little angel. He is worth it all.
What’s really wonderful is that he loves and adores me too no matter what I look like. He doesn’t care how fat I am, how messy my hair is, or whether I have any makeup on, he just gazes at me with this adoring look that melts my heart.
To see this beautiful baby and know that he came from me, will always make me feel beautiful.