Hello… I really don’t know where to start, but here goes.. I’m a 24 year old divorced mother of two beautiful amazing children. I have severe depression. I haven’t always been this way until after I had my first child. I love my children and I love being a mommy but no matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to accept the changes that have happened to my body, and this is why I’m depressed. My ex husband physically abused me for five years. He was a very cold heartless person, and I tolerated it for so long because I was afraid to be alone, I had convinced myself that no other man would want me because the way I looked without my clothes on. What’s crazy is that he had never once said cruel or hurtful things about my body. I guess I’ve been brain washed by the media. I just don’t understand why I’m so hard on myself. I don’t judge others by their apperance so why do I think this way about myself? I’ve spent so many nights just crying myself to sleep, even going as low as having suicidal thoughts but would never do it because I love my children too much. I was seeing a councelor for a while, and it didn’t help me one bit. I just wish I could accept myself because I know my body will never change. I guess that’s why I stumbled across this site… Hopefully you all can talk some sense into this girl! Cause God knows I need it!