I used to be self conscious. I always thought that being skinny was the most important thing in the world. When I was younger, I only weight between 114 to 120 pounds. I was even asked to model before because I was tall and skinny. As I got older, I found it harder and harder to maintain my weight. I cried whenever someone remarked that I have gained weight, even if it was minimal. I even went as far as to confine myself to eating salads and chicken breasts just to stay skinny.
When I got pregnant, I started to gain weight fast! I reached 190 lbs in my 9th month. After giving birth in 2008, my weight went down to about 170 lbs, until it reached 160 lbs…where it stayed.
When I got back to work from maternity leave, people would keep telling me that I’m fat, that I should lose weight. It made me cry at times, but eventually, I have learned to love my body and love the situation that I am in. Imagine, I don’t have to control what I eat anymore! I could eat whatever I wanted without having to care about how I looked. The bonus is that my husband now loves me more than ever, and my daughter adores me. What is important to me now is what my husband and my daughter think of me. I don’t care what other people think. If I ever decide to work out again and lose weight, it will be at my own terms and I will do it for myself, not because other people think I should.
Attached are photos of me before pregnancy, during pregnancy, and after giving birth
~Number of pregnancies and births: 1, 1 birth via c-section
~The age of your children, or how far postpartum you are: 1 year 9 months