this is probably one of the hardest things i have ever done. i mean, i really wanted to contribute to the website since it helped me so much during my pregnancy. just putting these pictures up, i was insecure before, but now i feel that my body is so misshapen now that it really doesn’t matter anymore. from one extreme to another. i just hope someone is looking at my pictures like i did during my pregnancy… hoping for the best for their bodies. i found out i was pregnant for the first time 2 weeks after my boyfriend of 7 years and i broke up. optimum timing. obviously this was quite a shock to me, and he’s been in denial ever since. it has taken me a long time to accept the pregnancy… and i’ve had a baby for 5 months! it’s just not something you get over quickly. you don’t get over having your entire life’s meaning and course change so abruptly very easily. i mean, there are days when i wake up and just want to go somewhere, or do something… and i forget, oh yeah, i can’t. being a single parent is one of the strangest experiences. you would think that in this day and age after how many teen/young/single mothers pop up… the world would get used to it? no. the world is not built for us yet. YET being the prime word. i’m also new at this mono-parenting so i know there are a lot more challenges facing me that i have yet to realize. i mean, once you try to go to the bathroom by yourself and figure out that is now an impossibility… that’s when you know your life has changed. i’m trying to get back on track. i can no longer be a musical theatre major as i was before “babyocalypse”, but i am going back to school, and trying to get a sensible degree to get a real-live job. i am also trying to work on a book for the single mother. since the only ones i could find while pregnant were mainly for divorcees or teen mothers. getting used to my body has been a challenge… getting used to my LIFE has been a challenge… body is secondary. i mean, before i got pregnant i was on a diet of mainly caffeine pills and rainbows. i was trying to lose weight desperately and then i plumped way up. and now i’m just a saggy sack of puddin waiting to become a jolly old lady. i am the perfect jolly old lady size… except i’m 21. so yeah. this is probably a step in the right direction for body image. one small step for flub, one giant leap for stretchmarks everywhere. but that’s enough about me. i had a little girl by c-section (unwanted, unneeded… i had pre-eclampsia and was induced and it was all downhill from there. anyone else have a catheter balloon in their cervix? fun, isn’t it?)on august 16, 2007 she was 6lb 10oz and is almost 5 mo. now and being a baby, you know how it is… living is tough stuff. her father sees her about twice a month for a couple of hours. it’s weird but whatever. his loss. her name is margaret evelyn and she poops a lot. my pictures are pretty much just stretchmark heaven. i tried to show also what happens to tattoos when they get invaded by stretchmarks. it’s not pretty let me tell you.
*website:* the_moaner_lisa.livejournal.com easy way to contact me, especially with any single mother tips and comments for research :)