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Dreams Come True (Anonymous)

August 2, 2010

Age: 25-years-young
Number of pregnancies: 4, 1 abortion, 2 miscarriages
Number of birth: On the way…I am 25 weeks!!! Yea!

After a horrible relationship with a best friend of more than 10 years, I never felt so betrayed. I had to end my relationship with her last year. She manipulated and instigated between my husband and I. I always wanted to keep a strong “friendship before lover” type of thing, but I found out the hard way when I discovered that she’s been placing me against people and people against me for many years. I really didn’t understand why she did what she did. It caused me many many tears. She literally insulted me and said “people only talk to you because you’re pretty, but people talk to me because they love my personality even if I’m not pretty.” Ever since she said that, I felt like I have no personality. My own best friend had put me down. Years of her instigating took to the point I aborted my baby at 3 months. I fell into depression afterwards. Before I found out I was pregnant, I was 110lbs. 5’3″. Then weigh 120 lbs. at 3 months. After the baby was out, I was back to 110 lbs. I grew very depressed and drop down all the way to 95 lbs.

Luckily, I have a wonderful and understanding husband. He was depressed when I did what I did, but he still stayed by my side. We decided to try again and this time I won’t do anything stupid because it was the biggest regret of my life! We tried again, but I got pregnant right away and was looking forward to risk my body for my baby! But sadly, my baby didn’t grow more than 9 weeks and just stayed in my uterus with no heartbeat. I cried my eyes out and didn’t lose hope so we tried again. About two months later, I was pregnant again. Unfortunately, it happened again where I miscarried my third baby. I finally given up and I told myself that this was God teaching me a lesson because I killed my first baby. I was so depressed. I felt like I deserve this and would never get to experience having a baby of my own.

After two years of having irregular period, I didn’t know I was pregnant and didn’t even bother to take a pregnancy test. But I grew very tired with no morning sickness. My husband told me to take one, but I was so afraid of the outcome—negative. After denying it for a couple weeks, I finally decided to take one and it was—POSITIVE!!! I was so grateful and I thank God for his precious gift. I was so afraid that the baby won’t grow more than 9 weeks again. But now, I am 25 weeks and everything is great!!! I am looking forward to stretch marks or loose skin, anything…I just want to hold my baby.

First picture is my body at 3 months with a little bump through the clothing. Second picture is me a four months although the bump is not there, I know my baby is there. Third picture, is me showing my boobies (which aren’t growing at all!=( but it’s okay, my baby is there). Fourth and fifth picture is me at 5 months front & side. I will update my upcoming bump more.

I can’t wait for my precious baby boy to arrive!!!

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6 Responses to “Dreams Come True (Anonymous)”

  1. Kris Says:
    August 2nd, 2010 at 10:54 am

    Congrats on the pregnancy and i am sorry for the little ones you lost. You look great…your soo tiny, at 5 months i was already so big lol :)
    goodluck with this pregnancy, your in my prayers

  2. h Says:
    August 2nd, 2010 at 11:18 pm

    I’m so sorry for your losses, including the loss of your trust and friendship. Best wishes for a happy and healthy pregnancy.

  3. Mary V Says:
    August 3rd, 2010 at 6:13 am

    Good luck with your pregnancy, you are still so tiny, you will probably make out really well pp! Im sorry for the babies you have lost but was so happy to read how supportive your husband has been :) Best of luck to you and your family!

  4. Anonymous Says:
    August 3rd, 2010 at 10:53 am

    Thank you for everyone’s support, I am on my way to the 29th week and the baby is moving like crazy. This is such a great experience. We are so blessed to be able to create something so lovely. I appreciate all the mothers out there making every mother feel good about themselves. Thank you and God bless us all!

  5. Anonymous Says:
    August 3rd, 2010 at 11:01 am

    I remember wanting to see my belly, and not wanting to feel like crap anymore about that time in my pregnancy. Enjoy your pregnancy and remember these days.

  6. Sarah Says:
    August 4th, 2010 at 1:41 am

    You look so cute! Congrats on your new baby. :) So sorry to hear about your lost babies. :(

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