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Before there was you… (Lilola)

There was just me, my story starts typical enough, married my high school sweetheart at 18yo, we were happy just being together conquering the world. Time passes by and I was 24yo, wondering where was time going. I was also wondering why no children yet, why no pregnancy scare, why no monthly periods. So at age 24 I went to the Dr. (RE), had all kinds of tests and so did my hubby, he had one test, and our infertility journey began. I was diagnosed with hormonal imbalance whatever that is and he had slow sperm mobility (70%) but both combined gave us only 30% chance of conceiving on our own. The treatments began, thousands of dollars spent, millions worth in tears and emotional rollercoasters. Still the years passed us by and I was 27 years old with not even a scare or possibility of ever becoming pregnant. Then in October 25th 2009 I unexpectedly became pregnant, under birth control to help my non-existent cycles, the joy was short lived the twin pregnancy was lost at 8 weeks we only dreamed for two weeks then they were gone just as quietly as they had come, I was in so much pain my heart ached so much, but time does heal. That New Year 2010 I felt a new sense of hope and my life seemed full of possibilities, I began a weight loss journey and lost 50 lbs. all the while my goal remaining the same, to become a mother. We took our final infertility treatment October 2010 and when that failed yet again, we decided that enough was enough and we were just going to accept that we were not meant to have babies and live with it. We started to travel, focus on ourselves, little by little though we were growing apart. I felt like a brand new person although my resolution had made me bitter, even though I was healthier than ever and enjoying life with travel and parties, secretly I was mourning my loss. I was mourning something I never had, how could I miss something that never was, secretly I cried myself to sleep, I cried in the shower and was unhappy, unless I was drinking myself to sleep, which I did most nights only then did the pain seem to go away. I was very close to asking my husband for a divorce we were like strangers to each other, only coming together at night. Then the unimaginable, the unexplainable, the miracle happened March 09, 2011 I found out I was pregnant!!!! My miracle/rainbow baby girl was born October 2011 at 29 years old to bring joy and healing to my life, restoring my marriage and enforcing my faith in God and life. I am currently on my second pregnancy with a baby girl due August 2015. The scars my body has are scars of healing after my war with infertility and I wear them proudly. UPDATE-my baby girl is now 9 months and my little big girl is 4 yo w/9 months LIFE IS GOOD..:)my body not so much and after a C-section even worse however I am a MOM!!!

2nd pregnancy 8 months
2 weeks postpartum 2nd pregnancy
6 months postpartum 2nd pregnancy
Before pregnancy 28yo

AGE- 33
NUMBER OF CHILDREN- 8 wk miscarriage of twins –NOW 2 BEAUTIFUL GIRLS (4yo and 9 months)


in Before Pregnancy, Belly, Breasts, Child Loss, Infertility, Mom over 30, Postpartum, Pregnant, Submissions, Third Pregnancy

1 comment… add one

  • John Sunday, July 17, 2016, 10:21 am

    Congratulations, your story is having a very happy ending. Your body looks amazing and your stretch marks are barely noticeable! Also your breasts are firm and perky and you have an hourglass figure with toned arms.

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