I posted for the first time 12 weeks postpartum. My son is now 13 months old and I am still settling in with this mama body. I have lost 40 lbs including baby and placenta, and am 20 above my prepreg weight. I still have fluctuating feelings about this body of mine. I hope to become fitter than I have ever been and recently joined a roller derby team. I feel stronger after every practice and it is doing wonders for my state of mind. I have definantly had my bouts with depression and also great joy and discovery. Sometimes I am so mean to myself when my belly pooches over the waistline of my pants. I have heard that called a muffin top. I know it will never be the same but I try to love and respect myself. It helps to hear my friends and the readers here speak their piece, because I am so proud when these women love themselves and so heartbroken when they don’t. I am adding some pics: the first 3 days pp, the next 2 or 3 months pp, and then about a year pp. The stretch marks have faded, the belly is still saggy but smaller. I am fitting in cloths I couldn’t close a year ago, but hope to lose more fat and gain more muscle. I have also definantly gotten stronger since becoming a mother.