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7 1/2 Months Later and Still Struggling (Jess)

August 25, 2010

I met my sons father when i was 17 years old. We met at a small little party and were together pretty much nonstop afterwards. Within 2 months we already had an apartment together. One night he had had a few drinks and we were just sitting around having a somewhat deep converstaion about how we felt about each other and he let it slip that i was a few pounds more than the girls he usually is with but if being with someone he really loves means having to deal with a few extra pounds it was worth it. I don’t think he was trying to insult me but needless to say it very deeply affected me. I dropped about 25 pounds over the next few months and went from 147 to 124. That was the smallest I have ever been. My self confidence was just horrible. I was always accusing my boyfriend of being unhappy with my body and it caused a lot of problems. I was 18 when I got pregnant and 19 when my son was born. I was honestly a miserable pregnant person. I gained 70 pounds going from 124 to 194. My doctor sent me to talk to a nutritionist every single appointment. It was honestly embarassing. I managed to avoid stretch marks until i was about 38 weeks. I think they actually got worse after I gave birth. I had a really horrible case of the PUPPS rash and was due to be induced on a dec. 20th. I went into labor naturally on my own tho on the 19th. It was a long 30 hour labor followed by a c section because i was just not dilating. I never made it past 3cm. I love my son very much and he is comlpetely amazing but i still get very depressed over my body. I’ve dropped about 50 pounds over the past 7 and a half months and am now down to around 143. I breastfed for 2 months and it was a really good experience while it lasted… definitely helped me to bond with my son and it was great not having to wash bottles lol…. My boobs have definitely changed tho… they depress me very much… they’re just these empty little sacks of skin with huge nipples…. they used to be my favorite part of me… I’ve pretty much hit a plateau as far as my weight loss goes. I don’t think im going to be able to lose anymore until i learn to like myself and become a happier person… I am a very emotional eater…. I know things could be so much worse… but i could really use some motivation…..

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1-3 Weeks pp
2-6 weeks pp
3-6weeks pp
4-4 months pp
5-4 months pp
6-5 1/2 months pp
7-6 months pp
8-7 1/2 months pp
9-7 1/2 months pp
10-7 1/2 months pp
11-8 months pregnant
12-prepregnancy
13- my son

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11 Responses to “7 1/2 Months Later and Still Struggling (Jess)”

  1. Rheba Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 7:31 am

    You look wonderful! And your child is adorable!

  2. Shannon Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 8:44 am

    WHAT!!!!! If I looked like that, then I would throw a serious party! I am not saying this to be nice, you look so AMAZING! Your tummy is totally flat, no overhang from the cesarean, perfectly faded stretch marks, tan skin…you are beautiful! I am so sad for you that your boyfriend said that to you. The weight you are now is PERFECT. You do not need to lose a pound. I cannot imagine my husband ever saying that to me…it would hurt…he is dumb! You look fantastic now, and I am sure you looked fantastic then. Please look at these pictures again…try to point out something bad, you can’t! You look great…oh…your breasts are quite perky by the way :) Lovely hip to waist ratio…I can even see your hip bones…don’t get too skinny girl :)

  3. Jess Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 3:17 pm

    Im so sad that you feel your not beautiful….first of all you look GREAT….you have a tiny tiny waist which i’m working so hard to get so be proud!…whether it was his intention to hurt you or not, he affected your self esteem with his comments… i really hope having eyes other than your own look at your body and tell you how great you look will help you to realize how good you looK! and baby is adorable

  4. Tracy Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 7:30 pm

    After my first son was born I was having a VERY rough time about myself as well, I gained 63 pounds with the pregnancy. I went to my husband looking for some reasurance naked and asked if he found me as attractive as I used to be, he said no. I have been fighting with myself and my husband ever since. I have had another child since and it has only gotten worse only the depression has got the best of me and I keep gaining weight. You look seriously amazing please dont let what your husband said change the way you look at yourself like I let mine.

  5. sarah Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 8:12 pm

    You are totally my boob double! I never thought I would find somebody who has my exact same boobs but you do, nipples and all! Its funny cause I have the same issues as you about them but when I look at you I think, what a nice rack!!! I think Im gonna go flash myself in the mirror right now and be proud of them cause if they look hot on you, then they should look hot on me right? lol, you are absoultely stuning and I agree with the above poster, do not lose any more weight! You are perfect just as you are, well proportioned with a tiny waist and sexy defined hips. Your bf is what I call a “numbnuts!” dont listen to him!! Your baby boy is absoultely adorable too, what a beautiful angelic smile!! All he needs is some little wings and he would be the perfect cherub! :)

  6. Sarah P. Says:
    August 25th, 2010 at 9:22 pm

    Holy crap your tummy looks so flat and tight! You’re so lucky! I wish you could see what we can all see!

  7. Carolyn Says:
    September 2nd, 2010 at 11:59 pm

    I’m also loving your waist and hips. As for you boobs, I think they look great and I know what you mean. Mine used to be nice perky As but now they’re really saggy C (and a halfs? haha)I really do think you’re gorgeous.

  8. Joanne Says:
    September 13th, 2010 at 4:19 am

    I think you look absolutley stunning – with or without a pregnancy! I prey to god i look 1/2 as amazing as you after i give birth! Guys will say things without thinking – and he probably said it to get you down, He probably realizes your to good for him, because you are gorgeous!

  9. charity Says:
    September 29th, 2010 at 10:24 am

    My boobs look similar to yours too! Mine are just smaller and pointier, but they’ve always been that way. while i was breastfeeding they ballooned to a small C (i was SO PROUD) but deflated soon after.

    Yours are a fuller shape than mine. I found out that I have a condition called Tuberous Breasts, a mild-ish version.

    you don’t have to be happy with your body, but at least accept it for what it is. there are so many women who have never had kids with wacky bodies, remember you could always look like them… and then you’d be on this site looking at women like you and wishing for their figures. :)

  10. Leah Says:
    November 20th, 2010 at 1:21 pm

    You look really really good! Seriously you don’t look like you were ever pregnant! Be happy :-)

  11. Rachael Says:
    October 31st, 2011 at 10:12 pm

    I wish I looked as good as you!!! You look amazing! I’m 4 months pp with my second child. You’re so lucky!

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