births: expecting my first
well my name is aya, i am currently 20 years old, i will be 21 on august 26, and i am expecting my first child, a boy, on September 1, 2009.
all though at times i am extremely happy that i will be meeting my son soon, i can’t help but to be extremely depressed about the 60 plus pounds i have gained during my pregnancy. sometimes i even hate going t outside, because people are always asking me if i am having twins, or saying that it looks like i was due yesterday, or dont go into labor now on me. it is just very irritating and depressing. i know people do not mean to be hurtful, the comments everyday about my belly are just depressing. i shouldnt be depressed about it, but i cant help it. i have always had a little weight issue, even though people tell me there was nothing wrong with me. pre pregnancy i was in between 127-130lbs, i am 5’2″ and i am african american and japanese.
the stretch marks i have gotten on my sides, stomach and right boob is disgusting looking. i probably will never be able to go to the beach again, or wear things that a normal 21 year old will get to wear. i dont mean to sound vain, but i really wanna enjoy my youth as well without feeling icky about my body. this just goes to show i probably should have appreciated the body that i had before my pregnancy. my boyfriend says that i will get back into shape in no time, but what if i dont. its honestly not the weight that i am worried about, its my HUGE belly, and i know the skin will be saggy. alot of my weight went into my stomach. sometimes i want to cry and cannot look at my pp pictures. anyways, i am really self conscious, but i wanted to share the pics with you because i was wondering if there was anyone out there who understands me, or is going thru the same exact thing.
p.s i haven’t gotten any signs of labor yet either. was wondering what you moms were doing the day you went into labor, and if there was any significant signs that you just knew that that day was gonna be the day.
1rst pic- pre pregnancy
2nd pic- pre pregnancy
3rd pic – 9 months
4rth pic- 9 months