I had my third little girl twelve weeks ago. I am 27. My first daughter is seven (weighing 6lb 1oz at birth), my second daughter is three, (weighing 4lb 12 oz at birth) and my third daughter weighed 4lb 14oz.
When I was younger I had anorexia and issues with self harm, and body image has always been a really big issue for me. I wish it wasn’t, but it is and there does not seem to be much I can do about it. After my last two babies were born I have had depression. I have hated my body so much that it makes me feel physically sick when I look in the mirror. I know that sounds silly, but I guess it’s because of the illness in the past.
I know I can’t go back to being the way I was before I had my babies, but sometimes I wish I could. A few weeks ago I was thinking about surgery ( tummy tuck, breast surgery ) but have realised that I am different because of my kids and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. Instead, I have started to eat healthy foods, and have taken up pilates. I’m planning on getting a new hair style too! Hopefully I can start to feel better about myself, and get to a point where I don’t think about it all of the time, where I am not worried about what I look like when I go out places, or take my clothes off at home. I just want to feel like me again!